this does not matter at all--

“We cannot see who we really are; we cannot see that we are not free,” stated Don Miguel Ruiz in his book ‘The Four Agreements’. The book is written in accordance to Toltec law and theories. As I began reading this book it described human domestication in a way that proves humans are the way we are because we are taught to believe in what others tell us. Our truth, our reality is just what people want us to believe because it is what was told to them to believe. Fear is a natural reaction to humans when they are criticized and begin to feel confused. Overall it is a fear of being judged- for stupidity, ignorance, ugliness, etc. A human knows very few ways to cope with this emotion and begins to feel angry. This anger proves that we care so much about what others think of us that we would threaten another human to look as though we are right (although it just makes us look like an ass). When the person calms they begin to feel humiliated from looking like a jerk and start to act as though they are expected once again. Allowing for the person to not realize that they are living for somebody besides themselves- they are not free.
One thing about this book that shined through to me was the idea of mitote. This is a dream where thousands of people talk at the same time, yet nobody understands each other. The book convinces the reader of reality being a dream, just with frames or specific time arrangements. Reality is real to us, because it makes the most sense in our lives. Although, reality does not make sense to us. While experimenting with a drug at a young age, along with 9 peers of mine, we were all sitting in a circle. All of my eight friends were blabbering away, and I was the only one listening to each person. I had no idea what any one of them were talking about. I began to feel they did not know either. This drug lasts for a long time yet makes time fly by quick, something like a dream. No one was making sense, and they did not even realize that nobody was listening. I realized at this time often during my daily routine (while I am not on drugs) I communicate with others, yet I do not care or think twice about what they have said. I know there are others out there who do this without realizing. So our reality is a mitote of people speaking to one another yet not caring, only when we care is when we are feeling judged. What is it that makes us want to feel accepted? I think once somebody stops wanting to be accepted and live their life is when we will figure out what life is about. (of course this will never happen because every single environment has its own effect on an individual).

if you read this whole thing and understood it, i am proud. because well you actually didn't.