im not sure if i agree with this

Media has been around for a long time, and it has been blamed for many incidents that have happened in the past, and it will be blamed for future predicaments. It is undeniable that mass media changes the way people think, and the way they act, but with all due respect it has never made anyone commit a crime, it has never made anyone murder somebody. I believe people who are easily manipulated (and people who are just downright stupid) blame things like the media for changing the way people act. I know I have changed my ways because of media, but only to a certain extent. It is up to the mind of the person taking in the media to decide whether or not it is reality or not. But this brings to question the age of children taking in the media. This is a bitchy thing to say, but once you consider it and really think about it I think you will agree with me. Children can not always be innocent, they need to realize what is going on in the world at some point. Maturity will bring our young ones a long way if they let it. I think with growing technology, human kind needs to grow too. It is time to quit being oblivious to children and what they know, and to let them in even more. They are our future leaders of tomorrow and the more they know in years to come, the more beneficial it will be to society. I do not believe violence is learned in the media, I believe violence and other such ‘horrible’ things are learned at home.

I could never actually hate him, but wtf?-meany head

Andy is such an asshole. Okay, not really, he is actually a really awesome guy. It is just, well we went out in, for like two weeks, then broke up, and I could not even tell you the day we started going out, the month, or the year for that matter. All I know is, when we broke up we both wanted to still be friends, and we still are! Which is awesome, no complaints. Except for this summer, when he told me I would never get married. I mean, yeah I used to joke about it all of the time before that, saying I could never marry a person, and could never raise a child. Those jokes have become reality. I bring Andy up in this, because whenever I am with him he finds an imperfection of mine and points it out. If I am so terrible at life, I do not see why he asked me out in the first place! Fine, he is right, I do agree with him that I have a hard time committing to someone (I have my reasons), and I am not the best person to come to if you need to feel better, I am not a compassionate person for people’s feelings, that is just me. I am about getting stuff done for me, and for people that I work for, that is it. I hate to say it, but I am sour towards relationships, I do not think I have ever had one successful relationship in my life. But he does not have to point it out to me, that is enough to make a girl cry. To know you will be lonely for the rest of your life.

my closest friend

I will not deny the power it has over me. I will not lie, and say that I would do anything to make it stop making me feel the way I feel. I can promise that it is harmful, and has caused the death of so many people, including my own loved ones. I will tell you now, I could not live without it. There is nothing on this planet, or in the entire universe that I could, or would ever want to, replace it with. I have a nasty disease that helps me cope with everything in this sick, sad, world. I should want it to go away, but the truth is I want it more and more. This disease will surely make it so I can never have a normal relationship, never get married, and never have a healthy child. Which is okay, I love everything it gives to me because it has shown me so much about the world. This sounds so confusing, and you are no doubt wondering what this is, but I will not tell. I know once I admit to anyone of my problem, they will make me seek help. Help is not what I need. I need its’ control over me, it is the only thing that helps me to feel sane. Bringing fourth the issue is for me, and it helps me to understand why I am this way. This is not a plea for help, so do not think I am asking to be saved. This is me, admitting to, and trying to understand, my life.

i am not sure

I have a hard time believing a person when they have lied to me before. Any one who has descent respect for themselves should feel this way. Not everyone, of course, is going to admit to it, because of a little phrase called forgive and forget. It is funny how people base their entire lives of what is said to them, and how it is said. Sometimes, it would make more sense to double think what some one is telling you. It does not make you bad person, or say that you have trust issues, it is just a way of living for yourself. You do not have to believe every thing that you hear, all of the time. I see people everyday that are being lied to and do not realize it. Of course, it is sometimes hard to realize when some one is lying to you, but it should be the persons second job to question the reality of the situation. Manipulation is so easily done by teachers, parents, friends, and it will be done for as long as anyone could imagine. Gatekeepers are an example of people who keep some news behind closed doors, and leak the rest to their audience. It is the journalist’s job to create the story so it is interesting, whether it provides all information is not in most journalist’s criteria of ethics for the audience. Overall, I think people need to learn what they hear is not always the full truth, in fact sometimes a big, fat, lie. Sometimes we just need to think for ourselves.

I HAVE NO LIFE. I THINK I'LL GO ON FACEBOOK

Facebook is for creeps. I recently deleted my Facebook account. I have many friends in North Dakota, South Dakota, Minnesota, and many other places that have been contacted by people they have met once and all of a sudden they are best friends online. Talking back and fourth about how they had so much fun that one night but they hardly remember anything that happened when they met. I too, have had people add me to their friends list in facebook and then once I see them again in person, they look at me as if they do not know who I am. If you ask me, that is the definition of creepy, someone who can not talk to somebody in person but can online. I realize there are shy people out there, but why would someone consider somebody a friend and not talk to them in person? I also watch people read other people’s conversations. For instance, the girl reading her ex-boyfriends wall posts, and reading off what he has said to other people. Most of the time this is done out of jealousy, sometimes curiosity, either way it is none of the girls business. This is also done between friends, or family. I think people should base their friendships by what happens to the relationship on a face to face basis. Not by something they cannot even discuss with each other one on one. One more thing I find annoying about facebook, is that all girls (and some guys too) put up so many pictures of themselves. Most of the girls put pictures up that do not even look like them, but they do it because they want to get a reaction. I think facebook is a way for college students to act like they are in high school again, it is a stupid popularity contest, that allows for others to gossip and for some creeps to find out about what is going on in other peoples lives. I say, get your own life.

value of a selfish life

I learned this weekend to never let some one you hardly know to make a decision for you that you should make on your own. Okay, truth be told, I have always known that. It is a basic rule that everyone knows. I am old enough to know I can and should make my own decisions, but that does not mean I always listen to will. It is like saying “I should go work out tonight and not eat that Butterfinger bar,” but well I know that I am more likely to give into temptation then to actually do something that will benefit myself in the long run. It is not because I do not care for myself it is because I want pleasure now. I am an impatient person and well I guess you could say I am selfish. So this weekend I decided to let some one make a decision for me when I knew better. The decision was to get into a car with a driver that had been drinking, and because I was selfish and wanted to stay with this person and hang out with them for the rest of the night we got into the car and started driving home. On the way home a couple was crossing the street and the driver was looking down, I screamed at him to stop but it was too late. We hit the couple, and he did not even realize it! I yelled at him to pull over and he did. The couple was pronounced dead the next day around noon time. This is something I will remember for the rest of my life, the fact that I was selfish enough to want to get to a destination with some guy took the life of two people. This did not really happen, but if it did, I would feel like a bitch. So do not drink and drive, because if you do, you are a selfish bitch.

I want a brand new (purple) phone, a completely different lap top, a cool car that all my friends envy me for, and I want a boyfriend. Unless my parents started to spoil me like I deserve to be, I will not obtain these with out setting some goals for myself. It is harder for people like me to say I want ‘this’ and have it magically appear than it is to set a goal and achieve it. So I have to set some goals. Well a new phone should not be a problem, I can work for a couple months and buy myself a phone. Oh wait, I cannot work because I have to go to school. I need a new laptop, also something that I need to work for (by working for society and being paid in return with currency) but I cannot do this either! I want a car, which obviously is impossible at this moment in my life. Boyfriend, well if you have any ideas for goals I need to set for myself with this one, please let me know, because finding that right (nice) guy has been harder then I could ever imagine. Obviously, nothing I have done has worked yet. One thing that I can do right now, that does not involve working, is studying and trying to get good grades, because that is the only thing I can think of that will pay off in the long run and allow me to achieve my goals of having nicer things.